I Hate Getting Fucked Over...
Since dA probably wants to kill me by now because that's usually where I do my whining, I've decided to whine here instead 8D (maybe I'll post a link on my dA, but whatever... I dunno)
So. My first ever relationship ended a while ago. And these are my thoughts on the matter: Camii, WHAT THE MOTHERFUCK?!
... Yeah.
She told me I was the first person she ever had an emotional bond with. She told me "you're my babe" over the phone. She told me she loved me. She told me a lot of things. And from the looks of it, she was bullshitting me. Or she's fickle. Probably the latter, but whatever... that's not really the point. I felt loved. Really, truly, loved. We talked all the time. We talked when I just couldn't bear to be alive anymore, or when I just wanted to throw a chair at my mom. I thought I loved her.
But anyway.
I log in to FB one cheery day, only to find that Camii has set her relationship status as "single", and removed me as a sibling. Uhh... what? As stupid as it may sound... I was shocked. As previously stated, I thought that we loved one another. Apparently not. I found that just a tad fucktarded odd. Maybe I'm overreacting, but, for the third time... I thought I loved her. I don't know if she is the kind of person that isn't really serious about these things and just does it for fun, but remember, I had never, ever been in a relationship before and it was special to me. I wrote her a three paragraph note on Twitlonger stating that simply changing her relationship status here on good ol' FaceBook was basically a really bad way of breaking up with a person, and was pretty much a slap in the face to me. She then replied, saying that she was still dating me, but she knew this other guy that she had fallen in love with, and since she's bisexual, that magically gives her a right to have two relationships. Ahem... that makes perfect sense. Could someone please explain this nonsense to me, please? That is, if there is ANY logic AT ALL to it? I mean, just because you're bi does that mean, that it's okay to have two relationships? I don't get that... what about how the other person feels, huh? I mean seriously, someone explain, because I really don't get it. Please. I feel betrayed. Fucked over, to put it bluntly. She then goes onto have another online girlfriend, which signals to me that she's definitely not giving a shit about me anymore, so... yeah. I don't understand any of this. My feelings are a jumble of confusing mush that cannot be explained.
Random stupid reactions after typing all that shyte:
Grr. I want a slice of pie and a cold soda... too bad we don't have pie... or cold soda... FML.
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